She takes my breath away…………..
Now I don’t mean this as some cliché statement, like oh she
makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Nah I’m not really that kind of guy.
Not to say I’m not emotional, I’m a human being for Christ’s sake. I just don’t
always walk around with my heart hanging from my sleeve. But when I am in her presence at times I stand there literally unable to breathe. As though I get to
keep these moments with the essence of her being just a minute longer if I
don’t take that next breath. Let her vitality creep into mine and intertwine
for just another tick…… tick…….. tick.
Her sense of humor enlightens me. Her sense of style brings
the greatest little smile to my face. The way she oozes talent inspires me to
get up and be more. Her abilities make me look deep inside myself for all that
I have to give; to match up to her. She gives me the passion to return to the
me that I truly am. The one I was before she crept into my every day. Before I
let my bad habits become my main ones. Before one part of my life ended and I started
towards another. Of course we both have pasts, though I more so, and I know
there are parts in both of ours that feel like a blunder. But I wonder if she
saw glimpses of this man. The one who would stand by her side and give support
in any way I could. And never fully turn away, no matter what words might come
out of this loose mouth at times. I wouldn’t, not from someone who takes my
breath away.
I’m not a dummy, the
conditions of the situation are far less than desirable I know. The distance in
life span and living span, it’s like we are on two different trains headed in
opposite directions. But my affections haven’t changed, even with all that time
and distance between them. And so I’ll carry it with me everywhere I go, every
next step I take, that little shred of hope. Hope that she did see the
connection we made as something more than just a quick passing phase, more than
just a rapid smoldered flame. And feel blessed to have learned and grown in her
perimeter and be always amazed by how she takes my breath away.
